last modified: Sunday, July 29, 2007 (12:30:22 AM)
Two points to anyone who knows what Yoyodyne means/is. Hint: The number 8.

Life has been a real yo-yo lately. Tons of things have happened, inspiring a range of emotional highs and lows. So, in no particular or chronological order....

After a lifetime of long hair, I finally got my second ever haircut! This may not sound like big news, but trust me, it is. Everyone who has ever known me or met me identifies me by my insanely long hair. I even used to have nightmares about my hair being cut off by some unknown person (yes, seriously... haha). I quit being a hair model about two years ago, so my obsession with my hair was on a slow decline. It was time for change and I must say, I LOVE having short hair! *_* I didn't donate my hair due to sentimental value. I have both ponytails from both haircuts. What can I say, I'm creepy. ^^;

Without too much effort, I landed a desirable job. One in my chosen field, so my degree isn't going to waste, and one I actually want to do! Two for two! Additional bonuses include some stellar benefits and a consistent schedule. This is probably the best thing that has happened in awhile. Giving two weeks notice at my current job felt so good too. When applying for this job, I had a big revelation that I know some very cool and well connected people because when it came time to enumerate my references, the list was quite impressive. I'm really nervous and excited about this big change in my life because of the great things it could possibly evolve into in the future.

My aunt was diagnosed with inoperable lung cancer and has less than 3 months to live. The whole ordeal surrounding this news was a mini-roller coaster of its own because first she was diagnosed with it, then told that was a mistake, and then diagnosed again... This nonsense went on for too long and all hope was eventually lost. I wish I could say this was the first time I lost a loved one to cancer...

My husband got a promotion. Now, he's always basically been "second in command" under the owner of his company, but this promotion will make it official. The owner is leaving town for two weeks, so my hubby will be in charge of everything. No different than any other day, really. ^_~

One of our 8 babies had to be put to sleep. Blackie, our oldest dog and resident pack leader, was in poor shape for some time. He was in so much pain, we found him lying in a puddle of his own urine in his doghouse. The pain was so intense he couldn't even get up to go to the bathroom. We know it was the right decision, but having to put a 15+ year old dog down is very, very hard. It's hard not to be selfish when it comes to your pet. Losing a pet is the kind of sadness you can never fully let go of or heal from.

A picture from his younger, party animal days

He kept all of the other dogs in line and he was the last of a line of dogs we owned for a very long time. He is sorely missed.

My father-in-law had a check-up recently and is still clear of cancer. He was diagnosed with and survived prostate cancer almost three years ago but there's always the heart stopping fear of remission.

There's been enough day-to-day good things and silly moments of splendor to make life enjoyable, but the sad news has been fairly devastating. I've been almost entirely absent from the cel community for quite some time now because so much has been going on. Above was a terribly modest summary of the major events. I just don't have the energy for online socializing right now. I still enjoy cels, but significantly less than I did a year ago. I plan to start updating my gallery again, at the very least.

Whew! Feels good to unload some of the emotional baggage. Hope everyone else is doing well. I apologize to all of my IM buddies who never see me online anymore. I miss you guys <3 I do try to stay in touch, but there's a lot of unanswered email in my inbox. Gomen. <3
re: Yoyodyne.Saturday, July 28, 2007 - 11:05:09 PM

*super glomps* I''ve been wondering where you have been. I''m glad you are doing ok. Exactly how many inches of hair did you get cut? If it''s a significant amount then you may find washing it will feel strange at first since there is less hair there. ^_^

Tony, I''m sorry to hear your pup is no longer with you. He looks like a very handsome guy and very closely resembles a dog I once had when I was a little girl. You did the right thing for him. Now he won''t be suffering anymore. *big hug*

re: Yoyodyne.Sunday, July 29, 2007 - 12:04:12 AM

My condolences for Blackie. Losing a close friend like that is never easy. As for your aunt, I say you throw her one hell of a party with all the cake and ice cream she can eat. It sounds like she needs a moment like that in her life. I am so sorry. I hate cancer with a passion. So fight it with cake and laughter.

Congrats on you and Senor upgrading in the labor department. It''s always good when you get a job that keeps you stimulated. Best of luck!

re: Yoyodyne.Sunday, July 29, 2007 - 5:41:11 AM

hi toni, i am so happy for the highs, but so sorry for the lows... i know what it is like to lose a pet, a loved one, and to know a loved one dealing with cancer... you are very lucky to have senor there with you (congrats on the promotion by the way, that is SO exciting!!)... you have always been so sweet and supportive of me, and i want to reach out and do the same. (feel free to email me anytime- keiko14@att.net)...i hope things get a little better, and it does sound like they are looking on the upside. love always *BIG BIG HUGS!!!*


re: Yoyodyne.Sunday, July 29, 2007 - 10:45:40 AM



...I cant beleive you finally got it cut!! *is super-super shocked*

And I''m really sorry to hear about Blackie, it sounds like you made the right decision, not that it makes it any easier, but I''m sure he had a wonderful life. My commiserations for your loss though.

Congratulations to Bob for the promotion too, that’s awesome...

As for the gallery take your time, don''t feel the need to do anything, you don’t –have- to do anything, so just do it when you want to! As for not being online to talk to...well that’s unforgivable, but I hope you’ll be back on soon! Things are too quiet!!

What else?? Oh yes...what about a photograph of your new do!!!!! I''ll believe that you''ve had it cut when I see it! Mwhahahaaa!! ^_^

Anyway take care and stay outta trouble Toni and thanks for the update!!

re: Yoyodyne.Sunday, July 29, 2007 - 11:33:22 PM


We missed you too, Toni! Thank you very much for updating us. I''m so sorry to hear that your family has encountered such troubled times as of late. I am thrilled to hear about all the good things, though. Wishing you, Bob, and the rest of your family oodles of luck and good karma ~_^

- RalphVBoy

re: Yoyodyne.Monday, July 30, 2007 - 9:29:21 PM

Thank you so much for posting everyone. I appreciate your love and support. You guys always know how to make me feel better. ^_^ Laughter helps so much.

re: Yoyodyne.Monday, July 30, 2007 - 9:30:27 PM

EEK! I almost forgot! I''m surprised no one recognized Yoyodyne. It''s a reference from Buckaroo Banzai. It''s also mentioned in Angel, as a company represented by Wolfram & Hart, but that''s a reference to Buckaroo Banzai as well. No one gets the two points. :P

re: Yoyodyne.Tuesday, July 31, 2007 - 2:25:37 AM

Hahah I did whack it into Google, so that I could cheat...but I still wasn''t sure! :P

Oh the shame of it all.